Monday, July 31, 2006

quick update

Just a quick update.... as all the time morning sickness is kicking my butt. :-(

My appointment went well. The hemorrhage is still there. My doctor said that often when the baby implants it hits a blood vessel. She thinks that is what happened, and that it's nothing to really worry about. As long as I'm not actually bleeding everything should be okay!!! I'm still cautious as it is so early, but it is reassuring. I don't have to go back for another 4 weeks. So here's to hoping an uneventful month with no complications and NO ER visits!!!!!!

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Yucky

I didn't make it to the dessert night Wednesday. I just felt too bad. I did go out to dinner with the girls Friday night. Saturday I went to a Pampered Chef party. After being at home all week it was so nice to get out of the house!!!

Well, morning sickness (or something) is here. The nausea comes and goes, but I feel like crap almost all of the time. I feel so run down and just "off." It was like that for the entire 9 months with Valerie. I don't feel like eating anything, yet I want to eat something GOOD. But nothing seems good!! I have zero energy to do anything and I'd be perfectly happy laying on the couch all day long. Of course, that's not possible. I attempted to clean today. My house is so dirty. Especially the floors. I think I did too much because I have all sorts of aches and pains now. Clint helped a little, but we all know he does not voluntarily participate in much housework.

Tomorrow I go back to the doctor. I'm so nervous. Clint is taking the day off work to come with me.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

I found a few women on message boards who have had the same issue as I do, and they went on to have healthy babies. That makes me feel a little better. It seems to be something that usually resolves on it's own, so I'm hoping that is the case. I'm taking it easy and resting. I'm doing as little as possible and picking up Valerie only when necessary. It's impossible to never pick her up. She is being just awful today. She's been screaming for a half hour straight and I don't know why. I've tried everything and nothing calms her down.

Tonight is Mom's Night Out again. We're having a dessert night. I want to go, but I'm not sure if I will. It would do me good to get out of the house, but I just don't feel very sociable right now. If I do go, I probably won't stay long.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

worried

Thanks to all who checked in on me yesterday. I am trying not to stress about it since stress won't help the situation, but it's hard not to worry. I can't think about much else. This isn't easy. I did a lot of searching on the net last night. The closest thing I could find to what was described yesterday is called a subchorionic hemorrhage, so I'm guessing that is what I have. I found info saying everything would progress perfectly normal to it will be a total loss. There isn't much info out there, and I'm not sure how bad my situation is. The nurse said it was small and they were going to watch me closely. But she also said she was ordering my labs "anyway." Anyway?? As in chances are it won't stick, but we'll do the bloodwork anyway? I'm just waiting for something bad to happen. It's out of our hands, and all we can do is wait. I don't know if this is worse than what I went through with Valerie. With her I was bleeding off and on, and this time I'm waiting for it to start. I just want my little "shamrock" to be all right in the end.

Monday, July 24, 2006

WELL....

I know you all have been patiently waiting.

Some of you already know the news.

Andressa and Kathryn --- you are both RIGHT!!! Valerie is going to be a big sister!!!

I had my first OB appointment today. It didn't go as well as I would have liked. The u/s shows a teeny heartbeat and measures just about right on - 5 weeks 5 days along. THAT part is good news!! The bad news is there is a small hemorrhage near the baby. It doesn't mean anything WILL happen, but my chances of carrying to term are decreased. It could go away on it's own and be just fine. For now, I have to be monitored closely. I can't pick up anything heavy unless it's necessary. I'm not to do anything to over exert myself.

Why can't I have a normal, healthy, pregnancy?? I had so many problems with Val. I have been feeling great! No morning sickness or anything. Just tiredness. I wasn't expecting to hear anything bad today. I'm trying not to dwell on it but it's kind of hard.

Friday, July 21, 2006

shhhhhh

Update coming... but maybe not until after MONDAY!!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wow

Very interesting day. Very. Details to come!!!

Monday, July 17, 2006

CaKe!


Here's my latest cake project. It's a birthday cake for my mom.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Valerie is still being whiney and fussy. I don't know why. She's not acting sick, but I am wondering if something is wrong. She is not her normal self.

We went to a birthday party today. Lots of fun! It took Val a little while to warm up, but she had a blast. She had more fun playing with the toys and bouncing on the toddler bed. Silly girl. Clint and I enjoyed it too. We got to see some relatives that we hadn't seen in a while. It was just SO HOT!! I just can't take the heat like I used to.

On a completely different topic... Clint and I had a big argument this morning. That kind of put a damper on my day.

I'm always telling him he doesn't pick things up or he does it half way. Or if I don't remind him he won't do it at all. He says it isn't true.... but it is. He'll pick up all the dishes but one. Throw out all the trash except for one bag. Pick up Val's milk but not her juice. What I've started doing is asking him to please do "whatever." Or I'll give him a choice, "do you want to clean up or give Val a bath?" And it works sometimes.

This morning he got up before me and fed Valerie her breakfast. Her dirty dishes and left overs were sitting on the table when I got up. After I ate, I started tidying the kitchen. I asked him to please pick up Valerie's breakfast dishes. He did, but left all the crumbs on the table. Later I told him nicely that he hadn't finished. That was all I wanted him to do. In the mean time, I cleaned just about the whole kitchen. When Clint came in to wipe the table, he was pouting. I said something about it... and it led to a big argument. If I don't tell him or ask him to do something around the house, he will never do it. The breakfast dishes would have sat there until I picked them up if I hadn't told him to do it. I'm always picking up after him and throwing away trash he leaves on the counter. What upset me was that he had the nerve to say "what about the nights when I come home from work and I pick up the dishes left on the table or I have to wipe off the table."

Oh.My.God.

I have never felt so unappreciated than at that moment. I'm not denying it. But on the days when I do leave a coffee cup on the table, it is because I am sick. Or Valerie is sick. Or we had a very busy day, a very stressful day, or a very bad day. Nevermind that five nights a week no matter if he gets home at 5:00 or 9:00, there is a home cooked meal waiting for him. His plate, fork, and glass are sitting on the counter ready. How many times has he come home to find that I had cleaned the entire house? And washed / folded all the clothes? What about while he is gone and I'm stuck taking care of his stupid dog, Valerie, the house, EVERYTHING. And he still comes home to a nice dinner and a clean house. I try so hard to keep the house decent and to make sure he has a decent meal every night. I just couldn't belive he said something like that. All because I simply asked him (nicely) to pick up something he had left out. How unfair is that. I just want to cry and cry because my feelings are so hurt.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Clint came home yesterday!! YAY!!! He'll be here a week, then it's back to Houston for a week. Things have got to calm down eventually, right?

Valerie was still not acting like herself yesterday morning. Her temp was 103 during the night then 101 in the morning. I called and made her an appointment, only to call and cancel it a few hours later. When she got up from her nap, she was completely fine! Val was her normal wild child self, so I knew she wasn't feeling that bad. I figured it would be worse to expose her to "whatever" at the doctor's office than to let her tough it out.

Today we went to the Kids Fun Day at the civic center. When we walked up, a lady handed us free tickets! She had won them and had extras. How nice, huh? The people... the kids... the crowd was insane!! It was hard getting to the booths and maneuvering the stroller through the sea of people. I registered for a few things, and just before we left my name was pulled. I won some clown binoculars and a circus book. Neat junk I guess! lol

When it was time to leave, Val threw a FIT. She wanted to stay. From then on, our day went down hill. I have no idea where my sweet baby was. First of all, she barely ate her lunch. And she refused to nap. Hungry + Tired = cRaNkY baby. She threw the biggest tantrum once we got home. She screamed and cried and threw herself on the floor. Her face was so red. Her hair drenched in sweat. Finally she quieted down. We decided to go out to eat since we hadn't cooked anything. Mistake. My child has never behaved like that in a restaurant! She's the cute baby smiling and waving and saying "HI" to people. Not the kid whining, screaming, trying to get out of the high chair, throwing food, etc! So we rushed and got outta there as fast as we could.

Once we got home and bathed her, fed her some oatmeal, she was fine. Tomorrow we are going to a birthday party, so I hope I have my sweet baby girl back!!!!!!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

My baby is definitely getting sick. :-(
Valerie woke up screaming during the night. She was burning up!! Her temp was 103+. She was a little warm this morning and a little cranky, but she ate her breakfast and played just fine. I hope it's just one of those things and she's not sick. We have too much fun stuff to do this weekend!! She's back sleeping right now. I'm debating on whether to go to the gym or not. Sick + tired baby = cranky crying baby and a stressed mommy.

My fingers and toes are crossed hoping that Clint will come home tomorrow!! He got the okay from his bosses this morning as long as he has all the data he needs. As long as he gets it done today, he should be home tomorrow night. I sure hope so.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Well, Clint is off on his Colorado Adventure. He made it there just fine with no sickness. He gets terribly air sick sometimes. How long will he be there?? Who knows.... When he does come home, it will only be for a few days. He has to go back to Houston for yet another week. *sigh* It's just never ending. I know I should be thankful that he has A job, a very good one.... but it's just so hard with him gone so much.

Today was a pretty good day. I actually went to the gym for the first time in two weeks. A friend asked me to go shopping with her. It started out kind of hectic as it took us 20 minutes to unlatch Valerie's carseat to put it in my friend's (bigger) car. Clint is the one who messes with the carseat, not me. Geez, I don't know if I should be glad or mad Clint has it in there so tight. We could not figure out how to get some slack in the belt to unhook the latch. Finally, somehow, she got it. (now I have to figure out how to put it back!!) Anyway, we went to New Orleans to shop. I bought a few things on clearance for Valerie for next summer. I really need some clothes for myself, but nothing I like fits right anymore. I keep telling myself once I lose the baby weight.... but that isn't happening. Anyway, Valerie was very good today. She told people "Hi" and babbled at all the interesting sights in the mall. Amazingly, she did not nap!! I was worried she would get cranky, but no. I think she dosed off for about 10 or 15 minutes on the way home. She was still wired when I put her to bed at 7:30, but she dove for her pillows and went right to sleep. Let's hope she stays that way!!

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Today we went to a birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese. Believe it or not, I had never been there! I didn't know what to expect. A few months ago we took Val to another local pizza party place and it was just pitiful. Today was so fun though! Valerie wasn't too sure about it. We put her on a few rides and she was scared. She warmed up after a while. As usual, when it was time to leave was when she seemed to be having the most fun. I'll definitely be taking her back since the playgroup goes every few weeks. Gotta cash in those 200+ tickets!!

I still can't believe Clint has to leave again. He just got home from Houston. I really hate it when he's gone. During the day it isn't bad because I have lots to keep me busy. But at night after Val is sleeping, it's just so quiet. It makes me wish he had a regular 8-5:00 job with a set schedule.







Friday, July 07, 2006

Clint was just told that he has to be in Denver Monday morning. They have been trying to get the guys over there to gather some data for weeks. They are not doing it, so Clint has to physically go there and make sure it gets done. He'll be there indefinitely.... What a nice thing to find out at 2pm on a Friday.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

The day after!

I hope everyone had a great 4th of July!!! I have to say our party was a huge success. I think everyone enjoyed themselves, and we did also! I was still feeling a little sick. Queazy, but not really bad. I stayed away from alcohol and didn't eat a whole lot to be safe. Only one family who planned to come wasn't able to make it. It was nice to have a party and people show up! lol! We had 14 people come by. One of my friends sells Discovery Toys, so she pulled out some of her merchandise and the kids went nuts. Valerie LOVED having all her friends over to play with. She was so excited. It was fun watching all these kids having a blast running around our yard. It rained a little, but that also kept it from being miserably HOT. So thanks to all who came and we're looking forward to next year!

One thing that bugs me though.... We invited our neighbors, as neighbors do. They said no because they were going to her mom's house. I'm not saying they didn't go at all, but they were home when our party started. They were all outside while we were. Those poor kids were itching to come over and join in the fun. It wouldn't have hurt them to walk over and say hello for a few minutes. The kids could have played. I could see if they hadn't been invited, but they were! Just knowing they were shut up inside of their house instead of coming to visit just irks me.

Monday, July 03, 2006

yes, again.

I am so freakin' sick. Last night was pure misery. I couldn't even keep a sip of water down. Every half hour or so I was dry heaving in the bathroom. Finally about 5am my stomach settled down enough for me to sleep. Today I barely got out of bed. My back is hurting so bad from bending over. I'm all achey. Weak. I know there is a virus going around and everyone seems to have had it. I'm thinking food poisioning though. I baked a cake and doctored up the mix, so I tasted it.... with raw eggs. Salmonella poisoning??? Whatever it was it was horrible. If we had someone to keep Valerie, I would have been at the urgent care center.

Anyway, it's 9pm and I feel a little better now.

Tomorrow we have about 30 people invited over to celebrate the 4th of July with us. I HAVE to be well!! We have SO much to do to get ready. I hope at least half of them show up.... you know how that goes. For some reason, they are shooting the fireworks RIGHT NOW. Yes, July 3. Kinda pissed because we planned the party around the fireworks. No idea why they are doing them a day early. NO ONE is out watching them. There is about 3 cars parked down the street. That's it. I'm sure some of the neighbors will be shooting them tomorrow so that will have to do.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Crazy

Last night was the BEST night I've had in years. It was a blast. I went to a Passion Party (like a FUN party) with the mom's in our group. It was so silly and cRaZy. Wild stuff. We all drank too much, ate, played a silly game, and cut up. I came home about 11:30 and was about to go to bed when my cell phone rang. It was one of my friends saying they were going out and wanting me to go too! I thought about it and decided to GO, as I haven't been OUT in a couple years. I hadn't had a girls night out in oh, 5 or 6 years. We hit a couple of bars and I was so ready to leave after about an hour. Funny how excited I was at the possibility of going out, but once I got there I was ready to go. LOL! It was still so fun. It reminded me of younger days when someone would call on the spur of the moment and say "Let's Go Out!", and even if it was 11pm I'd get dressed and go. I'm so tired today, but I'm so glad that I went!! Can't wait for the next one.