Sunday, December 31, 2006
Goals for 2007?? Save more money and keep better track of our finances. I would LOVE to at some point declutter my entire house! inside and out!! And keep the whole house cleaner. That will be a tough one though. And of course, work on dropping the baby weight after Veronica is born.
It looks like tonight will be a low-key New Year's Eve for us. We're still not over the sickness, so it's probably best we just stay home and rest. We're going to make nachos and hopefully some of the neighbors will pop fireworks. I'm pretty sure we'll be sound asleep by midnight anyway!
Happy New Year, everyone!! Best wishes for 2007!
Saturday, December 30, 2006
I'm SO congested and there isn't much medicine I can take. I'm trying not to take anything at all, but it's tough when you can't breathe!! I'm so tired. None of us have gotten much sleep the past few nights. Last night I tried EVERYTHING to unstop my nose and relieve the sinus pressure - hot shower, steam, vicks, menthol cough drops, more steam, warm compress, the vaporizer.... nothing made any difference at all. Finally about midnight I caved and squirted some Zicam. Instant relief and I was able to get a couple hours of sleep. The jury seems to be out on if Zicam use during pregnancy is safe or not... so I'm only going to use it as a last resort.
Clint is pretty sick too. At least he can take meds though. He slept on the air mattress in Valerie's old room because his snoring has been SO bad. I don't think he got much sleep because Valerie was up several times.
Valerie was doing better. Yesterday my parents came and she played outside in the wind for a couple of hours. Today, she's all congested again. She still has a horrible sounding cough and her runny nose is back. If we can stick it out until Tuesday, I'll be taking her to the doctor if she isn't better. Urgent Care wasn't much help last week, so there's no point in taking her there again.
We're invited to TWO New Year's Eve parties, and as of now it looks like we will miss them both.
Thursday, December 28, 2006
So yeah, our furniture is here!!! Now instead of having NO couches, we have too many. Waiting on the rental place to come pick up the crappy stuff. Can't wait to have my living room in order again.
And you all knew it was coming.... I'm sick. I've got whatever it was that Val had. *sigh* Even Clint is complaining of a sore throat. I just feel awful.... and there isn't much medicine I can take. :-(
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
After all of that, we came home, ate a quick lunch, and started to get ready to go to my mom's. We were so late getting there. And I was so tired. Valerie was cranky and not wanting to eat. She was all about opening her presents though! And everyone elses! lol Once she caught on to tearing off the wrapping paper, she was all over every box she could get her hands on. The contents made no difference - everything was "Oh WOW!" lol It was pretty fun just watching her have such a great time.
Funny thing though.... duplicate gifts were the theme this year!! Clint got me a jewelry armoire. My mom got me the exact same one! Clint got me a massage mat, and my dad got the exact same thing for my mom. I gave Clint a manicure set, and my mom gave him one too!! And "Santa" had a magnadoodle for Valerie, and my mom bought one for her too. Weird stuff.
Christmas Morning Valerie woke up about 7ish cranky and crying. Poor baby was SO congested and snotty. We set up the video camera before getting her out of bed. Almost the instant she saw the presents that Santa had left, she quieted down. She stared and then started pointing at the toys... and ran over to her play kitchen to investigate. More "Oh wows" followed as she looked it all over. It was so neat watching her. We opened every box and just let her play with everything on the living room floor. Mostly she played during the day and had a good time, but she did her share of crying and whining from being so sick too. Poor baby.
And she's STILL pretty sick. She luckily isn't acting all that sick though. Her cough isn't as bad, but she sounds awful. And her poor nose is constantly running. She hasn't quite caught on how to "blow" yet either, so she's constantly whining "nose nose!" wanting us to wipe it. I brought her to my mom's to spend the day today, and she did fine according to them.
I had an O.B. appointment today. I saw the nurse practioner and she gave me some iron pills to try. She said I may be anemic and that's why I feel so tired / bad all the time. I go back next week for bloodwork to check it out. I'm so aggravated though... the office girl has my payment info all mixed up. I was told if I couldn't pay the $500 deductible, they usually waive it. So I said great! Who in their right mind would argue differently?! I would be responsible for a little over $300 of the bill and I had six payments of $68. Easy as can be to pay that so I paid half of the entire balance. Today there is a new girl at the desk, and she tells me that is all wrong. I have to pay the deductible, which brings the total to over $900! There's no such thing as waiving the deductible and the other person had it caculated wrong. So now basically we have to come up with the money all at once since I've barely paid $200, when we could have been paying on it all along!!! Grrrr.
Oh and GOOD NEWS ~ Ashely furniture called.... My furniture is in!!! They'll deliver Thursday!!!
A couple Christmas pictures. With Val being sick and me not feeling great, I really didn't take that many.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
I can't believe tomorrow is Christmas Eve. It just doesn't feel like it. I did the best I could in getting ready and finding gifts for everyone, but I'm not in the mood this year. I just feel so... sad? I don't know if I have some kind of chemical/hormonal imbalance or what. At times I feel normal, but just in general I feel really depressed. I just don't feel like doing anything. I feel so "off." Everything makes me cry. I feel so alone. Clint wants me to talk to my Dr. about it. I really don't want to take any kind of meds until after Veronica is born though. I don't want to chance it. I'm just hoping it's a phase that will pass on it's own...
We moved Val into her new room! So far she's sleeping about the same as usual in there. It's not completely finished, but I am working on it little by little. Her furniture is in place and most of her clothes have been moved. I'm trying to sort through the toys, and I just don't know what to do with them. She has SO much stuff and I can't decide where to put some of it!
Tomorrow night we are going to my parents' to exchange gifts. We always have a little party over there and open presents. They are coming to our house Christmas Day and Clint is cooking dinner. I can't wait to see Valerie's reaction to all of her presents!! The look on her face opening some of her birthday gifts was priceless. I can't wait to see her Christmas morning.
I hope everyone out there has a wonderful Christmas!!!!
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
I felt so sad walking around the mall this morning. There's all the holiday decorations, Christmas music playing, fab sales, people.... I'm usually so into that stuff. This year, I'm just here. I know by next week I'll feel like I missed Christmas. I just don't feel good. I'm so tired all of the time. I want to be cheerful. I want to enjoy being pregnant. I want to love Christmas. But so far, I'm not.
Maybe it's hormones. or a chemical imbalance. I just don't know what to do about it.
I realized last night that in just about 10 weeks I will be full term. Ten weeks. That doesn't seem long at all.
I'm starting to freak out about experiencing birth again. It was not exactly pleasant. Although I do know more about what to expect, I know I'll panic anyway.
I'm starting to freak about caring for a newborn again. Valerie was such an easy baby. What if Veronica is not?? How will I handle dealing with a newborn and Valerie by myself day after day??
How will Valerie handle a baby in the house? I don't want her to feel left out. How will she handle our attention being diverted to another baby? Val is the center of everything now... I feel guilty already.
And we have no plan on what to do with Valerie when I go into labor. My parents are the only ones who are able to keep her long term. But what if I need to go to the hospital in the middle of the night.... then what? They can't drive all the way here in the dark and what if there's no time to take Val to their house? We need to figure this out soon.... I will be so worried about her.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Saturday, December 16, 2006
We got a lot taken care of yesterday. I finished Valerie's cake!! I'm happy with how it came out. My house is mostly clean, thanks to my parents and Clint. We just have to de-clutter the kitchen and pick up a little bit.
Today is Halliburton's local Christmas party. I am not sure if I will go. We still have things that need to be done around here. And last night I felt just awful from being on my feet all day. That was another thing I was mad about -- Clint has pretty much refused to rub my back during this entire pregnancy. Here I am, just about 7 months pregnant, in tears some nights because my back aches so much, and not ONCE has he ever rubbed my back. I've mentioned it to him, and all he says is "I'm sorry." I don't know what that's about, but really... he could give me 5 minutes of his time to make me feel better.
Friday, December 15, 2006
Time has gone by so fast....
Today we're getting ready for the big birthday party. I'm going to start her cake in a little while. Clint has promised to help clean (we'll see if that happens.) My mom and dad are coming to help later on I think. Food wise, we decided to take the easy way out and order a variety of pizza! After baking the cake and decorating it, I know I won't be in any mood to cook. Pizza and breadsticks = easy!
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Valerie is back to her normal self today. I guess it was something she ate that made her sick yesterday. Either that or one of those short viruses. She was up a few times during the night asking for juice. She's eating fine and playing as usual.
I on the other hand don't feel that great. I wouldn't say I feel sick. I don't feel well either. I guess all the stress and frustration is taking it's toll on me. Tomorrow we are supposed to go to the playgroup's cookie swap. I made two batches of cookies, but I'm not sure if we are gonna make it. I want to go... we'll see.....
Monday, December 11, 2006
Lovely. She seems fine. Playing and babbling. But as soon as she eats or drinks anything... blech all over. Hopefully it's just a quick 24 hr. bug.
If we had our new funiture / rugs... she would have vomited all over it.
Clint rented some furniture today. $20 / week plus tax and insurance. It'll be here tomorrow. I just can't deal with having NO furniture. Funny thing is they have the very set we have on order with Ashely for $27 / week. We could have gotten that and just "pretended"! lol! But at this point, cheaper is better.
Saturday night we went to our MOMS club Christmas party. It was great! All of the kids got a small gift and the adults played a game for gifts we brought. We had lots of food of course! Valerie had a blast. She was all over the house playing with the toys and other kids.
Yesterday I woke up feeling just awful. I don't know if it was something I ate at the party, lack of sleep, or just from being so busy lately. I felt bad all day. The furniture deal has me so stressed, there's so much I want to do before Val's party, and all the holiday stuff coming up too... I think mostly it's the furniture thing. I know there isn't anything to do about it, so I should just let it go. I just want everything for Val's party to be nice. Having a sofa won't make or break the party, but having an empty living room just seems awkward. We were supposed to borrow a sofa from someone, but that seems to have fallen through. I'm not sure what happened. My dad drove all the way here in his truck, but when we went to get it no one was home. And I had talked to her a few hours earlier and she said they weren't going anywhere. So, I kinda have the feeling she wasn't serious about loaning it to us... We may try to rent something this week.
Thursday, December 07, 2006
And I still have to figure out what to do about Val's party. I guess we'll look into borrowing some tables and chairs... I'm guessing about 25 guests will actually show. I'm just disappointed because I wanted my house to look nice for her party. I'm very particular about having people over and not having things out of place. So, having NO furniture is just... awkward. I guess we'll figure it out....
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
I also tried to have Valerie's pictures taken at Olan Mills today. That didn't go over very well either. She cried and screamed everytime I put her down. She just refused to stand by the backdrop and wanted me to hold her. So, I had to reschedule that too! We are going back Saturday morning to try again.