Saturday, April 04, 2015
My scar is still noticeable. Fading, but noticeable. Some days it appears more red than others. It's sore from time to time. I guess that's to be expected.
I have less than three weeks until I see the new endocrinologist that I called back in January. I'm hopeful but hoping I won't be disappointed. I need somebody to listen and test everything to figure out what's wrong. I had a few really horrible days a few weeks ago. I just wanted to sleep and felt terrible. I can't figure out why some days are so much worse than others. I don't think it's anything I'm doing. Over all, most days I'm ok but not ok. When I think about all of the things I need to do, it feels impossible. Ordinary day to day things. Ugh. How am I supposed to grocery shop, do laundry, clean the house, and cook dinner? And do my classes at the gym? Overwhelmed. Can't do it all. Somehow, I push through the muddy feeling and get most of it done. At the end of the day though, I am so done and just want to rest. I know I look fine and I appear to be fine on the outside but I'm just so darn tired and feel so incredibly off.