Monday, September 26, 2005

I'm around...

We've just been really REALLY busy.

I haven't been in much of a posting mood lately either.

But we're doing great!

Val's 9 month well baby appointment was fine. She weighed in at 19 lbs 14oz and measured 29 1/2" tall. That's my big girl!!

AND she's crawling now!!!!!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Me, Myself, and I

Yesterday was a "ME" day. A much needed ME day at that!! I left home about 10am with no real agenda in mind. Clint stayed home with Valerie. I wandered to a few stores just looking. Not really looking for anything in particular, but just looking. I don't really need anything. There's lots I WANT, but need and want are two different animals. I picked up a few things at the Dollar Tree. I bought Val a pair of shoes on clearance at Old Navy. Then I decided to catch a movie. I hadn't been to the movies alone in years. I used to go all the time. It started in high school - 11th grade - when I was given a car for Christmas. Every Sunday afternoon was my time at the movie theatre. I never minded going alone. Some of my friends were so paranoid about going anywhere by themselves, and the movies made the top of the list. I never understood why. It's not like you can hold a conversation with anyone during the show. Although, some people do just that. No one is watching YOU, they're watching the screen. So, why feel self conscious about going alone? I always liked sitting in the corner alone munching on a huge tub of popcorn engrossed in the latest flick. It was time away from the real world. MY time. Anyway, yesterday I saw "The 40 Year Old Virgin." Goofy, but funny.

I got home a little after 3:30 to an empty house. Clint and Val had ran some errands. As much as I needed a break, I missed her so much!!! I couldn't wait for them to get home so I could hold her.

Even so, I can't wait to get out again.

Monday, September 12, 2005


My house is so quiet.
Clint is in Houston.
Valerie is sound asleep in her crib. She whines every now and then in her sleep. (darn teeth)
SassyCat is sleeping in my bed.
Kita is sleeping on the back porch.
It's quiet.
Too quiet.
I don't like it.
I'm SO not used to staying by myself anymore.

On my own again

Clint left for Houston this morning. I'm on my own again this week. For some reason I'm a little anxious about it. I guess it's because I haven't done the "single mom" thing since his last offshore hitch in June. We'll be ok though.

Valerie is having a hard time. It's got to be teething. I'm pretty sure I can feel her top tooth *almost* coming through. She whined and whined so much yesterday. She's whining a good bit today. She'll whine and eventually tears run down her cheeks. She looks so sad. She wants to be held played with all the time. I'm trying to keep her happy, but I just can't hold her 24 hours a day. I do what I can, but there are times when I have to put her down. She gets sooo mad. I'm doing everything I can for the teething - motrin, tylenol, cold chewies, oragel, teething biscuits, teething tablets... She's taken some really long naps the past few days, so I try to get as much done as possible while she's sleeping. I hope this passes quickly.

Sunday, September 11, 2005


Where were you on 9/11?

Clint and I were in Destin, FL on vacation. We had plans to go shopping that day. The two of us were hanging around in the hotel and happened to turn the TV on. One of the towers was burning from a plane crashing into it. I thought it was a freak accident.... but then the second plane hit. A feeling of uneasiness crept over me. We watched and learned the planes were hijacked and crashed on purpose. We did make it to the mall eventually, but many stores had closed their doors.


Here are some pictures I took when we got back yesterday. We'll see how they compare to the $5 package I got at olan mills. LOL!! (I know how to use photoshop!!)

Saturday, September 10, 2005


I renewed our membership at the gym a few days ago. 6 more months!! I'm definitely getting my money's worth. :-p I'm going to be extra good for the next couple weeks and we'll see.... I have trouble sticking to a diet plan, but like I mentioned I don't really eat bad. Oh well. I might try one anyway. All I can do is keep trying. At least I'm being proactive about it. Some people complain about being fat but all they do is eat junk and watch tv.

We're going take our first family pictures today. I hope Val is in a good smiley mood! She usually is very happy, but when she's in an unfamiliar place she gets that "deer caught in headlights" look. I'm going to bring some of her toys to hopefully make her laugh. I have a pretty butter yellow dress for her to wear. Actually, it was MY dress. It's in great shape considering it's 33 years old!!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

word verification

I had to turn on the word verification thingy to keep spammers from posting on my blog. *rolling eyes*

Those things are annoying, but I get enough junk email with out dealing with stupid crap here.


No one tells you that after you have a baby your body converts itself to Jello pudding.

I joined the gym in March. Six months ago. I've gone faithfully. Really. I started going 3 times a week. Then upped it to 4. Now it's 4 or 5 times a week. From March to May, I lost 6 pounds. Yippee. And I hit a plateau. After 6 lbs???? Granted, it's not like I weigh 250 pounds. But it would feel so wonderful to put on my old comfy jeans and have them fit comfortably again.

I started keeping record of when I went to the gym.

May - 16 times
June - 14 times (I was sick for a week and didn't go)
July - 17 times
August - 15 times (I took a week off due to Katrina and having no electricity)

Gosh, that's still almost an average of every other day!!!

And yet, I haven't lost anything else. Not even inches. No loss at all since May. I have gained muscle. I know that muscle weighs more than fat. But the 10 -15 lb rolls around my middle aren't going anywhere. There has been no change in my waist size since MAY. That's where I need to lose the most. The rest of me is fine.

It's not like I sit on my butt eating junk all day. I'm caring for an 8 month old!! We don't ever buy cookies, chips, candy, ice cream, etc. We rarely eat fast food. We may eat out 1-3 times a month, tops. And even then I don't always over do it. Just sometimes. I don't think eating out a few times would be that detremental to weight loss, could it? I mostly eat normal healthy food. Nothing fried EVER. Brown rice. Chicken. Lean beef. Skim milk. Olive oil. Zero cal spray butter. I'm not starving myself. I'm not over eating. I eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I exercise 5-6 days a week.

I think I'm going to up my cardio a bit at the gym and see what happens. I'm trying to ride my bike around the neighborhood a few times a week. When it's cooler, I'll take Valerie walking too. I'm going to be EXTRA good about what I eat.

I don't know what else to do.

I don't know what's wrong.

My thyroid may still be out of wack. Maybe that's why I'm so tired all the time. But I am taking new meds, so hopefully they'll start helping soon.

It's depressing. Discouraging. I almost want to give up.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Normal? is up and running!! I have a few things to tweak, but it's there.

Hopefully things will start returning to normal, at least for us. Clint's going back to work tomorrow (in Lafayette.) He doesn't know if they will even bother re-opening the New Orleans office at all. My guess is probably not. Tomorrow I plan to go to the gym and doing my normal routine.

I'm sick of the news. It stresses me out. I'm trying to stay away from it, but I find that I am drawn to it because I HAVE to know what's happening. We are hoping that as the city is rebuilt, it's done right. There's so much potential to make New Orleans bigger and better (and cleaner!) than it ever was.

Valerie said mama!! We were playing with her on our bed the other night. I got up to get her a bottle and she whined. Clear as could be, she cried "maamaa" as I walked away! Awww! She's also waving bye-bye and trying to clap. That's my little girl!!!

Friday, September 02, 2005


Finally we are seeing some action in New Orleans. It's so sad that those people had to suffer so much before finally getting relief. Five freakin' days is ridiculous. No one should have died in the aftermath of the storm. At least not from dehydration or the elements. I keep thinking about the elderly, the children, and the babies!! The horror of them suffering in 100 degree heat with nothing. This should not have happend in America. I don't think the government realized the seriousness of the situation. They were not prepared. No one was, I guess. The numbers are staggering. It will probably be close to 100,000 people before this is over. And thousands have died... It's so hard to comprehend.

(AND that is just New Orleans. Mississippi and Alabama got hammerd too. )

I wonder how will New Orleans ever be rebuilt? It seems such an impossible task. Think about how many years New Orleans goes back... to the 1700s? How will this ever be replaced? My guess is many parts will have to be leveled to begin again. So many people will relocate and not go back. Businesses too. Clint is thinking that his employer will be one of them.

Oh well. We're living history. I just hope that now things will get better for everyone.

Oh yeah, I had a birthday in the middle of this. Thanks to all who sent birthday wishes!! Although it didn't feel like it with everything else going on. The years seem to go by faster and faster. Clint was supposed to go be in Houston, so we had celebrated by eating at Copeland's the Saturday night before. His trip was cancelled, so we were able to go out to eat again with my parents. (so much for the diet - ugh.) One of my gifts was my own domain! I am now the proud owner of ! yay!!! It will be a little while before it is up and running. I'll let y'all know.

Thursday, September 01, 2005


The chaos is unreal. This is like a movie. Or out of a book.

I can’t express the heartache I felt when we got our first glimpses of The City. We were with out power, so it wasn’t until we packed up to stay at my parents’ home that we really saw what had happened. It’s incomprehensible. I have SO many fond memories of New Orleans. Drunken nights on Bourbon Street. Concerts. Broadway. The Zoo. Aquarium. Shopping. Our first anniversary. Mardi Gras. YEARS of memories. My heart aches. It’s all gone. All of it. Complete destruction. Parts are underwater. 80% of the city was flooded. Buildings collapsed. There’s no power. No phones. No water. No gas. No sewerage. Nothing to sustain life, as the news has put it. Heartbreaking. I don’t know if the city is repairable. Parts of it are gone forever with out a doubt.

The people, those poor people. So many people have lost everything. Their homes. Their posessions. Their memories. They are lucky to be alive. I KNOW some of these people. They have to start all over.

Then there are the others; the ones who rode out the storm. The ones who had excaped floodwaters by going to their attics or roof tops. The ones in the Superdome. The ones in the Convention Center. The ones standing on I-10. The ones who are stranded there with nothing at all. They have no food. Little or no water. I don’t understand what is going on over there. I know the media can manipulate things and portray them in any light possible. I’d like to think this is the case. Or partly the case. I KNOW things are bad. Horrible. Incomprehensible. The local news is covering every move 24/7. I have seen trucks delivering bottles of water. I have seen people holding bottled water. I don’t think there is enough to go around. I have not seen food, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I DO think this could/should be handled better. Those poor people have lost everything. They are desperate. I don’t understand why drop shipments of supplies aren’t being made. Trucks should be going through 24/7 with food and water. Where is our government? Where is the Red Cross? PEOPLE ARE DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How come we are able to send aid across the globe, but can’t help our own citizens? Something is not right.

Now, the looting and other stuff. I can understand taking food or drink. Or medicine. Or hygene supplies. Even clothing or shoes. But WHY take television sets? Jewlery? GUNS? Display racks LOADED to the max with whatever? WHAT are they going to do with that stuff? There’s no electricity. Most likely they have no home. When (if) they get on a bus out of there, do they plan to carry on the TV as well? Why are they breaking into nursing homes and hospitals?? WHY did they set the mall on FIRE?? I don’t get it. AND WTF is up with them shooting at the rescue crews? Shooting hellicopters?? Why??? WHY?? These people are there to HELP you!! To RESCUE YOU, your stranded neighbors and family!!!! HELP THEM HELP YOU!!! Police had to be taken off of rescue missions to stop the crime!!! The convention center is total chaos. A war zone. The dome *may* be better under control, I don’t really know. But at the convention center…. People are dying. They are starting fires. Shooting. The news just announced there are reports of rapes/beatings. (from :Storm victims were raped and beaten, fights and fires broke out, corpses lay out in the open, and rescue helicopters and law enforcement officers were shot at as flooded-out New Orleans descended into anarchy Thursday. "This is a desperate SOS," the mayor said.) WTF???????????????? I realize these people are under tremendous stress. They are fighting to live. They are frightened. I can only imagine the despair. The devestation. The Mayor is crying for help to end this anarchy. Where is it?? HELP the people who are still there. HELP them live. SEND HELP and gain control of the situation before it is too late. Send in the military. Send in supplies. DO SOMETHING!!!!! STOP the anarchy!!! Again, WHERE IS THE GOVERNMENT??

Reminds me of the book - Lord of the Flies. Civilized people turn to savages

The busses are operating. We passed numerous bus loads of people heading West on highway 90 today. They ARE being moved to safer places. I know it will take some time because we are talking thousands of people. Thousands. 20-30 thousand. People who are confused and frustrated and I’m sure very unorganized. I have first hand news that some of the evacuees are already commiting crimes at their new locations!!!! Fights. Purse snatching. Car Jacking. Someone told me they were shooting up drugs in plain sight. We are HELPING them by allowing them into our community, and this is the thanks we get??? We offered them shelter and food. I am going to live in fear of being hurt by someone I am donating money and supplies to help?? I don’t want to sterotype, but many of the evacuees seem to be from the Lower 9th Ward, which is (was) overridden with crime. Drugs, drive bys, gangs, murders, etc. NOW some of these people are IN MY TOWN. I know they have to go somewhere. Not all are into the “hood” life. But it still worries me. What will happen here as a result of introducing people with this lifestyle?

And OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is STRAIGHT from the sherriff’s office. A relative heard a rumor that the busses were stopping along Hwy 90 and just letting the evacuees get off the bus to go where ever. WTF? The sherriff’s office said they put a stop to it. I know not all of the evacuees are bad people. I don’t want to stereotype. But how would you feel if large numbers of people from a “bad” neighborhood were being dropped off on highways. No food. No water. No MONEY. No place to live. WHERE are they going to go? WHAT are they going to do to survive?? The answer is – whatever they feel they have to. I’m afraid.

It’s no one’s fault that this disaster occurred. I FEEL for the families it affected. This is the most horrific tradgedy that has ever happened here. Awful. Just terrible.. I’m numb. I’m in shock. It’s unreal. It’s horrible. It’s heartbreaking. I don’t understand. The storm wasn’t preventable, but a lot of this aftermath WAS. What is happening to Louisiana? What is happening to this country?


I have SO many random thoughts. Gasoline. People do not realize New Orleans produces over 20% of the gas nationwide. What about importing/exporting at the Port of Orleans? Fishing industry? Tourisim? MARDI GRAS? What about all the lost jobs? Lost income? HOW are they going to fix N’awlins? Where are the zoo animals? Clint’s office building was in the CBD. Our mortgage company was right down the street. How do we pay our mortgage? Where are all those children going to go to school? What happens NEXT?

I could go on and on. I don’t think things will ever be the same in the South again.

New Orleans

I have SO many thoughts about the situation that I am at a loss for words.

For now "It's unbelievable and horrific" sums it up.


I'm working on it.