Thursday, December 29, 2005

more Christmas Day

I guess I should post a few Christmas pictures...

Us and my parents, Christmas Eve

Val in her Christmas dress. She didn't wear the hat for long! And a few from Christmas Day..

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

I think that I am slipping into a bit of a depression. I've been there before... Several years ago it was pretty bad and I took meds for a year. I'm just not motivated to do anything. I sit and look at the mess my house is becoming, yet I can't seem to find the energy to clean. All the Christmas stuff... toys... clutter... seems so overwhelming. *sigh* I'm not interested in doing anything. It all involves so much effort. Effort I can't bring myself to make. I'm not really sad, but not happy either. "comfortably numb." The events over Christmas were a trigger. At least one of them... I just felt so forgotten. So unloved. So alone. *sigh* I'm just not sure what to do next. I need to find motivation. Energy. We actually have a babysitter for New Year's Eve!!! And I don't feel like going anywhere. Too much trouble to get dressed, stay out late, worry about Val, etc etc. We probably will do something though because it will be months and months before we have the opportunity again. I need to snap out of this funk...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Scratch scratch

I'm itchy. Itchy red splotchy rash all over my shoulders, arms, neck. IT ITCHES!!!! Having some kind of allergic reaction to SOMETHING. Don't know if it's something I ate or a product. I did use some new bath stuff, but it seems like the rash would be all over if that caused it.

Did I mention it ITCHES!!!!!!!!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday!!

Mine was eh, so-so.

I feel so forgotten. So.Unappreciated.

I know Christmas isn't supposed to be all about the presents. In a lot of ways, it IS though. We all give gifts to all the people we care about. Maybe I sound childish and petty, but my "santa" didn't do a very good job at giving this year. I admit I'm hard to buy for. I have everything and have very few wants. I like gifts that have a use... other than taking up space. That is why I told Santa I wanted a pair of $20 heated massaging slippers and a $15 Cake Mix Doctor cookbook - and told him BOTH are at Wal-Mart. And that's all. Super easy.
I got neither one. My Santa went to ONE book store and didn't see the cookbook, so he chose two imitations. And picked up a set of 3 white rubber spatachulas. (??) I'm not sure why, because we have a set that works just fine. That's my Christmas.
I spent so much time... put so much effort into finding his perfect gifts. Nice gifts. I got him a dressy wool overcoat. An MP3 player - no, it' s not an ipod but it works. Some cologne he asked for. And two webcams (which he has wanted for months) so that we can see and talk to each other while he's away. I told my parents he wanted a leaf blower and a skill saw. Done.
And it's asking too much to want two measely things? :-( I don't understand.
I couldn't sleep last night. So, at 3am I got up and got online. I ordered the Cake Mix Doctor cookbook and heated massaging slippers myself. So there.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Although we had Val's party, I couldn't let her birthday go by with out doing anything!!

And here's a video clip:

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Happy First Birthday to my beautiful baby girl, Valerie!!
Momma loves you very much!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Exactly 1 year ago

I looked like this:

39 weeks PG! I had a 10 am OB appointment on December 21. I went straight from my appointment to the hospital! It doesn't feel like a year at all. I still remember how miserable and HUGE I felt. I was so ready to get this baby out, yet terrified at the same time...

Party time!

Valerie's birthday party went very well over all. We had a great time - me, Clint, and Valerie. Everyone else did too, at least I think they did!!! Valerie was SO hyped up. She knew something was going on and did not want to take a morning nap. I had to put her in the car seat and drive around so she'd nap!! I was worried she'd sleep through her party if she missed her regular nap. Once all the kids were here, Val was so excited. She played with them as best as she could. I think the kids had more fun playing with Valerie's toys. LOL! I was a little worried that the older kids were going to break some of her new stuff. She did get some really great gifts. Val didn't make too much of mess with her smash cake. I was a little dissapointed because I really wanted some messy cake pictures. Oh well! I think I'm going to make her another small cake for tomorrow - her actual birthday.

Clint dressed as Santa and gave out gifts. It was SO fun! Only one boy (Seth) was willing to sit on Santa's lap. The rest were scared or not interested. It was just SO funny. I think that Santa will have to make an annual appearence at her party! LOL!

Val was so wound up and didn't nap at all that afternoon. She didn't want to sleep that night either. She was up twice wanting to play with her new toys! I need to find some kids for her to play with though. She seemed to really enjoy interacting with them.

So, that's the short version of how her party went! I'm a little sad that it's over. I've only obcessed about it since Halloween! Well, there's always NEXT year... hee hee!


Well, here's the Baby Einstein Caterpillar cake I slaved over for TWO whole days. It was **A LOT** of work. It didn't come out perfect, but it was good enough. Taste wise, I've made better. It looked cute though.

Monday, December 19, 2005


I know y'all are on pins and needles waiting for a birthday party update! I'm working on it!!!!

Friday, December 16, 2005


Somehow Valerie managed to climb/fall out of her crib yesterday. :-( Luckily, she wasn't hurt.

I heard her babbling, so I knew she was ready to get up. I went to the bathroom first and heard a loud THUMP and then screams. I KNEW what had happend, but I didn't think it was possible. Sure enough, there was Valerie sprawled out on the *ceramic tile* floor. Screaming. I scooped her up in my arms to comfort her and make sure nothing was broken. She seemed ok, but wow she was screaming. I held her and she calmed down with in a few minutes. I doubled checked to be sure she was okay. Thank God she was. I was so scared!! She could have landed on her head and broken her neck. I'm guessing she stood on a stuffed horse in her bed, leaned over the railing, and flipped over. Poor baby. :-(

Needless to say, we lowered the mattress AGAIN last night!!!

Sunday is her FIRST BIRTHDAY party!!! I can't believe my baby is one year old already. *crying* I'm working on her cake right now. So far, so good... I'll be sure to post lots of pictures from her party.

Friday, December 09, 2005

New Valerie photo album posted... click Even More Valerie...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Monday, December 05, 2005

Searching for ME?

I'd love to know who you are.... Thibodaux Charter Visitor... googling mellie +melo.... ?? Interesting. And obviously someone I know, or who knows me.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Last to know

Why am I always last? My whole life I've been last.
The last picked.
The last invited.
The last called.
Last in line.
The last person thought of.
Last on everyone's list.
Last one included.

And, even now in my own family.... the last to know.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Dinner Faux Paus?

Last night we had some people over for dinner. Someone my husband knows and his girlfriend. The plan was that we would provide steaks, and they would bring side dishes. Green beans and garlic potatoes... and maybe bread. Their idea to do it this way. Pretty simple and fair, right?

We marinade the steaks and were waiting until they arrived to throw them on the grill. I figured I'd pop their green beans and potatoes in the warm oven so they wouldn't get cold. They call to say they're on the way. Great - we're all set!

Until they walk in --- empty handed.


They did bring a beautiful poinsettia.

But no food??

No apologies... Offered no concrete explanation... no mention of their food whatsoever. The guy said something to Clint about his g/f working late. He knew that early in the day though.... and had called just a few minutes before they drove up. Something should have been said then about them not being able to bring anything. I wasn't sure how to address them. *I* didn't want to sound rude by asking "where's the food you were supposed to bring?" Neither Clint nor I said anything. Instead, we played gracious hosts and hurriedly scavenged the pantry to find something to fix. Thankfully we had a few cans of green beans and a box of instant potatoes left from Thanksgiving.

But, isn't that weird? Inconsiderate?? Rude?? I just couldn't imagine going to dinner at someone's house empty handed when I had promised to bring half the meal!! What if our pantry had been bare? I can see forgetting a dessert or something small... but how do you forget about bringing half the dinner? Especially when it was their suggestion to do it that way?? I don't get it.

The more I think about it, it annoys me, and I really want to know why they did that.