Friday, November 28, 2008


Going with the usual weekend after Thanksgiving tradition, we took our Christmas card pictures today. How I got the girls to smile at "no one" (remote control camera!....) I'll never tell! But it worked and I will do it again!


Thanksgiving was nice. I was very thankful that we didn't have to spend the day alone. My Mom's absence would have been more painful if we had sat at my table with an empty chair. We spent the day with friends and had a fantastic Thanksgiving meal. Being out of the house for most of the day kept my mind occupied, but I did have a hard time once we got home. Too many memories. Too many things -- gone. I wore one of my Mom's shirts today. Some of her jewelry too. And of course I made her traditional broccoli, cheese, and rice casserole.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Enjoy your day.

I know I have lots to be thankful for.

I just doubt it will be happy. It will be a very hard day.

My heart hurts so much. I miss my Mom.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

After being sick for nearly 19 days, I am finally starting to feel better. As Clint put it, I am just really run down. I hope I can find the energy to get through the next several weeks. Thanksgiving... Val's party... our Christmas party.... Val's birthday.... then Christmas... then New Year's. It's all a lot of work. Plus numerous comitments in between and I need to finish my shopping some how.

I'm having second thoughts about my 'busy is better' theory. Right now I just don't care to do anything.

Santa pic 2008

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Friday, November 21, 2008


*I've been sick for sixteen days and counting!!! Can't seem to shake this sinus thing. I'm so stuffy and can't breathe. It's worse at night. If it's not better by Monday I guess I will go to the doctor.

*Veronica has been sick for a few days too.

*We put up our Christmas tree yesterday. The kids have already pulled all the ornaments off the bottom.

*Valerie helped decorate the tree and insisted on putting the same ornaments grouped together.

*Tree looks terrible but I don't care!

*Val made Clint put the lighted reindeer and inflatable Santa in the yard. Then she cried and cried because she couldn't "see Santa's smiling face" from the window. Aww.

*Veronica is suddenly talking up a storm. It's mostly babble, but she's saying 2-3 word sentences here and there. I've noticed she does it more when Valerie isn't around.

*Last night I went to Olive Garden for Mom's Night Out. It was so fun and so nice to get out with no kids. I was feeling pretty bad towards the end though and left earlier than I normally would have.

*Sometimes I think I'll be ok. Then others it feels my heart is shattered into a million pieces.

*It's funny how people you thought you could depend on prove you wrong. Then others that you never dreamed cared, really come through.

*I've finished shopping for Santa and all of the kids I needed to buy for. Now to figure out Clint and my Dad.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


I am feeling really overwhelmed with the fast aproaching holidays. Thanksgiving is next week?! I don't even want to think about it. It feels like the holidays are aproaching fast and I feel so unprepared. I know it's going to be difficult and full of memories and bittersweet moments.... I am almost done shopping for Valerie and Veronica. There are two more things I need to grab at the mall, and my Santa gifts are done. I'll just need a few things to wrap for under the tree so that they have gifts to open on Christmas Eve. It's everyone else that I want to get something for that baffles me. Clint and my Dad are the only two adults I need to shop for, and I'm clueless. Clint... I have a few things in mind, but it's to find it. But what on earth do you buy a rich old man? I can't seem to focus. I am not motivated at all. I just feel so overwhelmed just thinking about going from store to store looking. I can't even bring myself to browse online. It just won't be the same this year and my heart isn't in it.

Valerie's class is on the letter H this week. Today their H theme was "What makes you happy?" Valerie's answer: My MeMe and Poppi.


Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Veronica remembers

Veronica loves looking at photo albums. She's constantly pulling my albums off the book shelf and flipping through it.

I'm cleaning the living room today, and Roni grabbed a book with very old pictures in it. All of a sudden she gets so excited! She laughs and laughs, and says over and over, "MeMe!! MeMe!! MeMe!!" as she points to a very old photograph of my Mom and Dad in Biloxi, Mississippi.

I burst into tears.

Zoo pictures

Flamingo Valerie
Taking a rest

I see you!!

An attempt at a family pic



The BEST pic of the day:

Sunday, November 09, 2008

We took a trip to the Audubon Zoo today with our almost-sort-of-but-not-really "free" tickets. Many months ago we purchased a special 4 ticket package for $25. Regular cost is $50, so this was a deal. Well... we went to the zoo not long after. It says on the ticket to hand it to the ticket taker, and when we did.... he glanced at one ticket and handed it back to us and waved us through. So... we kept the tickets and (ssshhhhh!) used them again today. Our luck ran out though because this time we had to turn them in for regular tickets at the window. Shucks!

My Dad came with us and it was a great day. The weather couldn't have been perfect. Valerie and Veronica had a GREAT time. Val was so excited that my Dad was coming that she made me call him at 7:30am to make sure! She adores him so much and is always so happy to see him. Roni is getting to be the same way - shrieking 'POPPI!' when she sees him. Val was the same way with my mom, and I hope she holds on to those memories.

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Sad day

I packed up almost all of my Mom's day-to-day clothes and all of her shoes today. We're giving them away. I hope someone who really needs them gets them. She had such nice things. She always dressed well. I'm so sad to get rid of them... it's so hard. I wish I could keep it all.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

7 things MeMe

A little late.... So Kitty tagged me a while back:

1. My first job was at a video store.

2. We used to sneak alcohol into the skating rink!

3. I sang the Alma Matter at my high school graduation - solo.

4. I used to have 2 big round moles on my neck that looked like vampire bites. I had them removed when I was 14 due to being teased so often about them. Nobody ever noticed!!

5. I was a little overweight when I was 10-12 years old. My mom convinced Gloria Marshal (weight loss center) to take me on even though I was under the age requirement. By the time I started junior high I had dropped about 25 lbs.

6. I lived at home until I was 30.

7. I had a pet duck. Not once, but twice!

I tag anybody who wants to play!!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008


Christmas stuff is everywhere. Christmas music, too.

I'm not ready for the holidays AT ALL. I dread them actually.

I do hope I'm able to give my girls wonderful holiday memories this year, inspite of everything.

It has been 3 months, 3 days... It's hard to believe my Mom has been gone that long.

Hopefully I can find some positive things to focus on during the holidays. The Girls of course. Val's 4th birthday party in early December. We are hosting a huge Christmas party as well. I figured we wouldn't be invited to anything, so unless WE host something, we'll end up sitting home alone all holiday season. That's the last thing I need. Not looking forward to all the prep work though.

Busy is good though, right?