Friday, January 21, 2011

Right or not

I know it was the "right" decision, but I still feel so guilty. I brought Skooter to the vet in hopes of helping him. He had no idea what was going on. I didn't have much of a choice. My only other option was to stick him with needles and IVs every couple of days for the rest of his life. I just couldn't do that. And he would still have died. I just feel so bad. I brought him to a strange place and he died alone -around strange people. I held him and petted him and told him what a good cat he was. I said goodbye and walked away knowing I'd never see him again... all the while he had no idea what was coming. No idea that his lights were going to be turned off... forever.

I know he was 'just a cat' but in so many ways he was not just a cat.

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4 comments:

Jenn said...

Think of it this way. He wasn't able to eat. He couldn't hear well. He was suffering. Instead of thinking of it as you left him alone, you let his be free of his pain. He knows how much you loved him, and you did what was best for him.

Oldfool said...

I have so many stories of that. Each time I say never again but it always seems to happen again. We knew Susy was dying. She was old and we suspect had heart worm so we let her pass at home with love light in her eyes still.
I see her ghost everywhere everyday. She still has the love light in her eyes.

WeeMasonMan's Mom said...

No matter what the circumstances and how "right" it was to do, it never feels "right" to those who love them. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Andressa said...

Melanie,

I have never had to make such a decision so I can only imagine how much heartache it must bring.
I am sure it was the right decision.
May your heart be at peace soon.
{{{{HUGS}}}}}